so at least 8 marks gone.
plus some careless mistakes here and there.
but heck.
2 more weeks is all i care.
right now lets busy ourselves with environmental issues shall we?

not the first time i had this feeling.
if i tried so hard and yet cant be on par with
someone who didnt even try as hard,
what is the purpose of it all.
thanks for trying so hard, cong
self denial, you deserve a break.
what is the purpose of it all?
what more can i do?
the world is closing in on me.
disillusioned. whatever. my life is so screwed up.
i feel like dying
now.

There will come soft rains and the smell of the ground,
And swallows circling with their shimmering sound;

And frogs in the pools singing at night,
And wild plum trees in tremulous white;

Robins will wear their feathery fire,
Whistling their whims on a low fence-wire;

And not one will know of the war, not one
Will care at last when it is done.

Not one would mind, neither bird nor tree,
If mankind perished utterly;

And Spring herself, when she woke at dawn
Would scarcely know that we were gone.


i feel like sleeping now.
but it's not the time to
yet.

even if it's tiring,
i will learn to love it.

should i say i saw it coming?
or should i say it was unexpected?
i totally thought it wasn't my script when
i saw the marks. horrified at a subject
which i had so much confidence in.

relieved that for some subjects
i've met my expectations. then again,
my expectations were never high.
it's funny that i am feeling so peaceful.

rachel says,' 50 days to jump 5 grades.'
ms tan says,' the next 50 days will be like HELL.'
phu says,' so people say miracles can't happen.
i say they just haven't.'

yes, i think so too.

i was just thinking life is short,
so maybe we should do things that we like to do.
what the hell am i studying for?
i should be throwing all my books away and conquer the world.
there's so many many many places i want to go.
perhaps,
before i can accomplish that i need to have sufficient capital
and that's why i am going to school.
but,
will i even get to enjoy what i desire?
if i dont get to live until then...

today is DAMANTOU's birthday haha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! ((:

suddenly i feel so free. how?
so now i think i will be screwed for A lvls.
just like for prelims.
sighhhhhhhh )): but i just dont feel like touching any of my notes.

reading a biography on ho chi minh so exciting eh?

and alyy is back in LA already i guess.

if only i had studied hard )):
pip and all his great expectations.